I won't allow the universe to have the audacity it needs to be unchanged, I want it to grieve with me.
I want everyone alive to know what they have missed and I want them to feel forever sad at their loss.
Every human should be aware of not knowing her.
Every animal should know she will never look at them in wonder.
Every building that will not know her breath should want to collapse.
Every landscape she will not admire should be in shadow, the sun should dim, flowers should bow, forests should be in winter.
Every rock she will never climb should become mossy and crumble into the sea, they have no purpose.
Every star that will never shine on her should drift away into inky space, they have no reason.
All the water not drunk by her, washed over her, swam in by her should wish for frost, not one drop is needed.
Every pillow is cool and plump, every sheet pressed, every brush unaware of her contour.
Billions of brains unchanged by their lack of Ruby, billions of smiles and tears of joy
that will not happen because billions of ears will never hear her,
there are billions of cold hands that won't know her touch, billions of unsparkling eyes that have not seen her.
I pity them all and I am angry with them all for their ignorance.
Whether it knew her or did not know her the universe should mourn its loss.
